To be where You are

procrastinitis

2005-04-14T15:29:00.000-04:00

Jesus saves...

2005-04-04T00:46:00.000-04:00

Jesus and Satan were having an argument about who was better on the computer. They had been going at it for days, and God was tired of hearing all the bickering. Finally, God said, "Cool it. I'm going to set up a test that will take two hours and I'll judge who does the better job."

So Satan and Jesus sat down at the keyboards and worked away. They did spreadsheets. They wrote reports. They drew up charts. They sent e-mails. They did every office job possible.

But, ten minutes before the time was up, lightning suddenly flashed across the sky, thunder rolled, the rain poured, and, of course, the electricity went off. Satan stared at his blank screen and screamed every curse word known in the underworld. Jesus just sighed.

The electricity finally flickered back on, and each of them restarted their computers. Satan started searching frantically screaming, "It's gone! It's all gone! I lost everything when the power went out!" Meanwhile, Jesus quietly started printing out all His files from the past two hours. Satan observed this and became even more irate. "Wait! He cheated! How did You do it??!!"

God shrugged and said, "Jesus saves."

Eye of the Tiger

2005-03-29T13:49:00.000-05:00

Desire. Determination. Discipline.

I need all three to get through this last month. 8 more days of classes, 3 assignments, 1 paper, 4 exams, and exactly a month left before I'm done here at Queen's. Time to kick some a$$~!!!

“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” - 2 Timothy 1:7

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I've also posted up pictures of random KCF moments and pictures from doodoo's birthday on my imagestation. pAyce~!

Second Chances...

2005-03-28T21:59:00.000-05:00

Wow, it’s been awhile since I last blogged. Well, I’ll make this entry somewhat serious. This Easter weekend turned out to be a real blessing spiritually for me. I was able to rededicate myself to the conviction of making the most of my opportunities to glorify God in everything I do.

I realized that I’ve been digging myself into a hole for a long time. I found myself willing to follow God, but I haven’t been going through with it in action. I was stuck in a rut of disobedience. It seemed like things weren’t working out the way I wanted them to and my past mistakes and wrongdoings were beginning to haunt me. I didn’t know how to make the pain of my sins and failures go away, but rather than humbling myself and turning to God, I tried to get through it on my own. I didn’t consult Him, and instead I took action on my own. I just kept digging myself further into a hole.

But this Easter weekend, Pastor Peter Yi's message reminded me that our God is a God of second chances. There is nothing in this life that is greater than God’s love for us. My failures, mistakes, and wrongdoings were all cleansed by Jesus’ blood when He died on the cross for me. My slate was wiped clean by His grace, and by His mercy I was given a second chance.

The objective of my blog I guess is to say that our God is a God of second chances. Whether we experience loss, disappointment, failure, or mistakes, God will always provide a second, third, or fourth chance, however many chances are needed. I know I've heard this sermon countless times before, but this year, the message had more meaning for me. I know I’ve often strayed from God's purpose for me and squandered many opportunities, but I want to change that. As I am graduating, I want to make the most of the new opportunities and possibilities that God will challenge me with. Pray for me.

"the dream of someone else"

2005-03-13T01:07:00.000-05:00

just got home from watching "you've got mail" with some kcf people... it was "cute", and yeah, i know guys aren't supposed to use that word... but heck!

there were a couple of quotes i liked... but the one that really stuck with me was when meg ryan says "you're more likely to talk about nothing than something, but all the nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings"... i used to know the feeling... *sigh*

anyhoo, what was the objective? iunno, but have a g'nite...

Awesome weekend...

2005-03-07T12:11:00.000-05:00

i've been feelin pretty blah lately, but this weekend was great! i wanna keep this entry light and short, so here's a breakdown: dre came up on friday and we ate until our monstrous appetites were satisfied. saturday we had pezzy nuna's surprise birthday party with KCF people at my place and at megalo's. Saturday night was spent at the Cocamo... went outwith the 311 crew - j, dre, liz, joey, jen n woojin... it was kinda dry and empty, but saw some faces i hadn't seen in awhile. it's kinda strange how i don't see alotta people i used to see when i was into that scene... Had a hard time getting up on sunday morning after a night of clubbin, but made it to church... later that afternoon, got a call and surprise visit from tk... stupid kid doesn't come visit in first term, and now he comes like every weekend... but this weekend was punctuated with praise and power... it was just amazing... but that wasn't the end of my weekend... got to surprise peggy again with a suprise visit from me, dan, joce after p&p and had another update session.... i've been mighty busy this weekend, but not with work... i hope i don't pay too severely for that later... oh wells, i've been feeling overwhelmed by alotta things, besides school... but last night after p&p, i really felt like alotta what's been troubling my mind were lifted... God is good.

... so much for a short entry... sigh... anyhoo, i'll be uploading pics from pezzy's bday soon... [edit: up on imagestation now]

Blah...

2005-03-04T00:31:00.000-05:00

Lack of sleep is killing me. So much on my mind. Can't think straight. And my knee is hurting really bad.

Reading week update

2005-02-28T23:28:00.000-05:00

Queen's. So many good memories. Sigh.

It seems like there’s so much going on in my life right now. So much uncertainty and confusion in terms of relationships, friendships, career and schooling, and other life opportunities. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy and productive, rather than reflecting, thinking things through, and asking for God’s council. I was rushing into a lot of things head on. But it’s funny how God slows people down. The first half of reading week was just uber crazy with lotsa get-togethers, lotsa eating, lotsa partying. Then came our KCF ski trip to Blue Mountain. Usually God breaks me emotionally and spiritually, but this was the first time I’ve been broken physically. I hurt my knee coming down a hill where I actually heard it pop. The doctor said I have a moderate grade two sprain of my ACL and LCL ligaments in my knee. Aaaaanyways, the second half of reading week, I was essentially sidelined and couldn’t do anything. Stuck in bed or on crutches, I had to scrap my plans to go out and chill. Sure, I was slightly disappointed, but God was telling me to slow down. He missed me. As I was busy trying to make time for my other friends, I had been neglecting to spend time with Him.

My predicament also gave me an opportunity to spend more time with my family. I even had a really good conversation with my parents, much deeper than the usual daily stuff. They challenged me to broaden my horizons, to try my best, and most importantly they challenged me to grow in faith. For the first time ever, I actually had a conversation with them about our faith. It was really encouraging to know that even when I was neglecting my relationship with our Father, my parents were always there praying for me. It was even more encouraging to see my dad so on fire for Jesus. For a man who used to prefer a round of golf to church on Sundays, it was so awesome to hear his plans for a party with my mom once they finish reading the Bible. For a man who used to go to church maybe twice a year, it was so awesome to hear about his involvement in different church groups. For a man’s heart to change that much since the summer can only be from the Father. It’s so awesome to see how my prayers were answered. If I had not been forced to slow down, I would not have been able to appreciate God’s work around me.

Anyways, while I was sidelined, I had time to upload the Blue Mountain ski trip pictures. (Click here.)

Wow, that was a looooooooooooong entry. If ya spent the time to read it, spanks. Otherwise, until my next update,
pAyce~!

Done... for now

2005-02-18T11:45:00.000-05:00

man, i miss the days of cruising in c's civic blasting stupid songs like this...
[edit- Handsome Boy Modelling School - Look At This Face]

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I'm just waiting for my annual apartment inspection before i get to go home for reading week... finally. Midterms are over for now, but I just checked the tentative final exam schedule. I have an exam scheduled on april 20, 22, 22, and 29. I finish so gosh-darn late again. It sucks. But oh wells, time to plaaaaaaaaay! :)

pAyce~!

F O C U S ~ ! ! !

2005-02-16T13:28:00.000-05:00

Maaaaan, this sucks! I can't concentrate. I've got a midterm on Friday, but I still can't get myself to focus... I don't know what's happened to me this year.

This blog isn't helping either. After that last blog, it felt so good to let things out... but now I cant stop - I've written four major drafts in the past two days!!!
maybe I'll post them later... but for someone who usually can't find the words to express himself, the words just won't stop flowing through my fingers... argggGGG

I need to F O C U S ~ ! ! !

No more blogging until reading week! ><;;

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(edit... thurs 1:07am)
i lied... i'm back cuz of you jess... i can't seem to change my template right now tho... arggGG... anyhoo, i'm gone now until midterms are over, forreeealz...
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Growing pains...

2005-02-15T02:42:00.000-05:00

I don't really have much to write, just something that's bugging me right now. I guess I'm just feeling a bit nostalgic and sad at the way things have changed.

Today is a friend's birthday and I just got off the phone with her. It was the longest, most awkward conversation on the phone. She graduated last year, and I'm still stuck in this rainy, depressing, hick town. I guess she's moved on with her life and we've just grown apart. But I can't help it, I really miss her friendship right now. She made Kingston just a lil more bearable. I owe a lot to her. I wouldn't be on the same path in my walk with Christ if it weren't for her. She kept me accountable throughout the years giving me guidance and advice while I was confused and growing in faith. I still feel that I am growing, but it's so much harder on my own. These growing pains are really hurting.

I don't know what it is that I am feeling right now. It's a sadness and a bitterness. But where's this bitterness coming from? It irritates me that Pastor Rob prophesized me as being blessed with the gift of friendship. But to me, my gift of friendship seems ironic. I feel as if I am a friend to all, yet I have no true friends.

The friendships I truly believed were real, are no longer. We've all grown apart. How could somebody with the gift of friendship not be able to maintain the relationships he so treasures? I don't know. My bitterness comes from knowing that even the friendships given to me from God can't last forever. I just got to keep reminding myself that with each friendship that dims, there's a new opportunity to reach out to someone new who may not have seen the light.

My thoughts and feelings seem so petty, stupid, and wrong to be having. If only my friend were here to set me straight and guide me. I'm so confused. I guess the only thing I can do right now is to surrender all to You. I don't want to look to other things. I don't want to look to other people. I want to be devoted to You. I want to find peace in You.

I want to find satisfaction in You.

Despite my surprisingly long blog, just looking back on my many memories brings a huge smile to my face. I am comforted knowing that our friendship was a gift from God, and the timing could not have been better. Heck, I am growing!!!

^________^v *peace*

COMING SOON...

2005-02-13T23:45:00.000-05:00

Could this become Justin's weekly UPDATE forum? hahaha...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY~!

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